Good Morning Dear World~!

yippee. its MY off day today. haha. and im so gonna clean up my house. haha.

i didnt have a good sleep. no idea why i keep waking up and then back to sleep. and as usual ill wake up at 9+am to prepare for work. and i did it today. RAh. im on off leh. and i still automatically get up. so saddd.

brother got back yesterday. finally im able to see him, i thought i wouldnt be able to see him this week. haha. i saw Janice too. she slimmed down a lot already please. seriously hope she'll get in the SIA thingy. was so close to getting in the other time.

regarding my fees. thank God for my uncle. and im still able to study already. im so glad. thank God.

i was so bothered for this two days while im at work. im totally not in the mood to talk or play or whatever. at one point of time i dont know what im gonna do with my life. but now.. thank God that everything is almost settled. pheww.. i was telling myself that God will make a way, where there seems to be no way. even sing it out at work just to peace myself out.

thinking back, i seriously felt so sad lar. i cant imagine myself living a life without a goal that i have no ways of getting it. i cant imagine myself having a dream without working for it. i cant even imagine me without a aim for this life im given... that day was the day when i thought ive lost my hope my dream and everything. esp the love i have for my dad. cant believe that he actually said that to me i was terribly sad lar. i hope he means it when he says he loves me on the phone. i dont want to hear white liess. and the feeling of life without a purpose is terrible. i even questioned myself why am i on earth for. now..im here on earth to prepare for the life in eternity. heaven! but.. i left church. so does it mean i go to hell? can you love me when you aint here for me and gives me nothing? so does that call love?

and at a point of time i suddenly felt that everyone is leaving me. esp my loves one. but now i came to a conclusion that i will not be sad again if someone forsake me. coz i have my DAD in HEAVEN! thats the unconditional love He can give.

i remember once my cgl said: hey dont die okie? keep on keeping on. yeah so i wont die one. ill tolerate all the shit im given and keep on keeping on.

jo deary. do you know im so touched when i read your testimonial. i was crying while reading it. haha. thanks so much darling. that little few words really meant alot to me. can you just appear out of nowhere so i know i still have my bestie to be with me in my time of need? can you just pop me a message so i know you still love me? can you just call me up so i know you are really there? whatever it is, i know your busy now, with your exams. just do it well alrights.

and to one of my faithful reader. haha justin. thanks for ya messages encouragement and care. thank you. and dont forget that you are gonna go out with me to play alrights.

and my one super good buddy. haha nelson ong! haha. he is surely one super good friend i have. haha. he will just call me up on my phone to just be there for me can. just on that day when im so lost. haha. and he wouldnt mind hearing me crying and talking at the same time. haha wow. im so touched lar. nelson, if your reading. im so glad to have you in my life you know! and dont forget we are going to play after ive quitted my job alrights.

oh. i saw alicia last night while working. shes my primary school friend.haha. getting prettier already please. haha. she said something which makes me feel loved. haha. shes like so excited. she was like YOUR HERE WORKING? can i have your number, your msn????? write down now for me also can. haha! i was laughing but im feeling really good. haha.

and world! pays coming out really really really really really soon!

im so disappointed with my dad.

i really need the strength to keep on keeping on believing that my dreams will be fulfilled and let nothing fail me. O Lord! can you just tell me what to do?

dear world. what would you do when your dad tells you straight: i got no money for your fees, how?. what are you gonna do dear world?

he scolded me and said that he did not ask for money from me when im working. and now he still have to pay my fees? he was unhappy. he blamed me. and said okie you go and work.

i was damn freaking pissed. i was asking myself if the man im talking on the phone is dad. coz i cannot. i cannot believe that my own beloved dad who gave his word to me that he'll pay my fees telling me that he got no money. i was terribly angry, sad and super super heartbroken.

he can still want money from me when he dont even give me allowance? oh.. what logic is this? he is my dad. is he my dad? oh Lord.. and the main reason for not asking allowance from him is im working and im able to take care of myself. now hes telling me all this shit.. its really rubbish to me.

is he a responsible man? is he? telling his own son to pay all the electricity bills and all after ORD. is he responsible? taken care of us for less than 5 years and now he grumble so much. or should i say he only gave money to us. not love or anything. nothing. by name hes dad. im nothing compared to an orphan!

he make me feel that ive suddenly lost my dream. my goal i always wanted. my hope. all. im freaking sad. im so disappointed. whats life now? able to get to the school and the course i wanted so badly. and now. he just say: no money for your fees how? he asked me how? OMG!

i emailed him hoping i could talk things out with him. and he.. did not even reply my mail. is he dad? or he does not love me anymore? he does not want me anymore? damn. he aint taking care of me or anything. why almost everyone dear to me fail me almost all the time?

never left alone nor forsaken? isit true dear God? but what my dad had done aint it the same as he has forsaken me? aint it the same as cant be bothered with me. whatever im doing and all?aint here for me. nothing. im so angry......

im worried for my fees. i can afford it. but if they could just push later the date for payment. coz ive yet to receive my PAY! was at work the whole day today, i was so freaking bothered. im so sorry that i didnt talk much or laugh out loud. im just so sad lar.

and im already so bothered with it. that relieve captain come and talk rubbish. i was freaking upset. i just smile and laugh with him. all he said was craps. rubbish. all the while im tolerating his rubbish. RAHHHH..

i feel that my life is in a mess now. im trying to figure out what to do. im trying to see things in a bigger picture. im trying to not worry so much. im trying to keep on keeping on. im trying to love everyone around me. even those who disappoint me soooooooo damnnn much!!!

i realised im blogging almost everyday. haah. two simple reason, im too bored at home and im too broke to go out and play. so im FORCED to stay home. haha.

dear complicated worldly world! my pays coming out in TEN days time! oh GOD.. ill wait ill wait. haha. super duper broke man. i wanna go out.

planned to dine at a jap restaurant with rongrong after pays out. im so looking forward to it. and my watch. i saw it at citylink today. man i so wanna get it lar. love it so so so much lor.

i walked pass the puma shop today and i saw the shoe.. but i turned back and look again, was asking baobao: hey, its that the shoe? but why it dont seems like it is? haha. alright. now im having other shoes in mind also. so i shall wait and see what other good and nicer shoes out there. haha.

i wanna dine at Galilee and Friends again. who wanna have dinner with me over there????????

ended work at 7pm and headed to macdonalds with manrong aka rongrong to chit chat. haha. talked alot with her. man this girl is so cute. haha. and about her life. well. God give different challenges to different people, i feel that her battle in life is harder than mine. so i guess im not as strong as her. haha. friends, shes only 17! and her life.. phuuaa.. strong girl she is. haha.

aunts birthday is arriving really soon. and im so broke. how sad. haha. aunt and i planned to go for dinner over at marina bay for steamboat.hehe. been a long long time since i last stepped marina bay. haha. i was quite surprised that aunt actually called to ask what am i gonna do on that birthday of hers. she wanted my baked cookies. haha. so im gonna bake her cookies. haha. just hope that this second attempt will be good. haha!

time really flies. going to school really soon to pay fees and all. im excited for it. im excited to know more people. more good people i really hope. im excited for the CCA im gonna join. ive already planned. hahaa. its either volleyball or hiphop dance! i love both. but i know if i take up two CCAs ill not be able to handle my school work. so i guess ones enough lar. haha.im so excited to go for orientation!

i have yet to tell my supervisor about me quitting that job. i dont know how to bring it up to him. just that month, i guess 3 included me, servers are leaving. if thats the case, my supervisor will be so in need of manpower to help out. so how to say that now? i really dont know. i wanted to bring it up to him today. but the moment i see him, i just head back and continue to do my stuff. haha.

my bro is home but hes on his way back to camp now. sigh. got the chance to chat with him for only like 10mins. sigh. miss him.

rongrong and i are planning to go shopping after pays out! i cant wait. i cant wait. haha! movies also. and neoprints! she also wants to go johor to shop. haa! need to plan my spendings already. if not ill be super broke when school starts. haha!

i aint late for work these two days! haha. i have a wonderful captain. gave me morning call with sengseng and mingming making so much noise at the back. haha. im so thankful for the morning call. the effort. haha.

oh. i just remember of one good news. i gotta know little darren! haha. darren is this one little customer who always patronize kbox with his dad and mom. and goodness. he is one cute handsome boy. he always HI HI HI BYE BYE BYE till he couldnt see me already. ohhh.. aint he so cute?

and his dad asked for my name and little darren remembered! and i just said it out once! haha. he sooo sweet hor! how i wish to see him again before i leave that workplace!

oh theres this customer at work got me irritated. haha. man.. who cares if you know our boss? think you know our boss we'll treat you differently when you come to sing? she was like: waa you all got jacket anot huh? very cold leh. i replied sorry we do not have. she said: eh can ask *****, your boss to give us jacket? den she said. can give more tibits anot? not enough leh. i replied sorry i cant and blah... den she said: ask ***** to blah blah i forgot lar. i dont care you know our boss or what. you come in your still our customer. come and tell me you know our boss. know our boss then you can sing at kbox for free isit? if thats the case. i also wanna befriend with our boss leh.

its another week tomorrow. and i had a good week this time. praying for a better day!

im home!

work ended at 730pm and have to attend a meeting which ended at around 845pm lar. thought i'll be home early today. but well. meetttiinnnggg.. sigh.

oh dear friends, esp justin. haha im alright lar. dont worry so much lar.im not so sad till i have no mood to do anything. haha. im not feeling is the end or what lar. maybe i was too tired last night when i blogged. haha.

im really looking forward to april. haha. so looking forward to it. haha. and world, its my off day this thurs! ive no plans. wanna ask me out?haha. if not ill just stay home!

i want to go tanning! i want to go shopping! i want to go movieeeee!

i realised that im feeling very moody now.

got home and my house is so quiet. messaged my brother and he aint coming home. gotta go back camp. and he wouldnt be home for a week. which means i wont be seeing him.

went to the nearby 7-11 to get myself maggie mee. bro called and we chit chatted. talked about dad and about financial stuff. sometimes im really disappointed with dad. but sometimes i cant bring myself to blame him or hate him.

im so sad that dad aint with me for almost ALL the time and im all alone. im disappointed that he told me to pay my school fees myself. im disappointed with myself for being sucha weak girl. i always thought im a strong girl. but now.. i guess im not after all. im just trying to be one.

who can i really turn to. to talk about everything? who can i really share everything with? i so wish to be a girl who smile and laugh all the time and has nothing to be sad about.

its all me myself and myself and myself.

someone said something that got me hurt. damn. if i can just dont work, ill surely NOT work! i forgot what this someone said. but it just got me feeling uneasy. i dont know how long can i continue what i am doing now. im so tired of it. so sick of it. if im not wrong, that someone said: you ni or mei you ni at work makes no difference. wow, dear world.. how SWEET is that huh?

one more, im always late for work. work starts at 11am but im always there at 10.55,56,57 or 58. its counted late.. sometimes actually one time, ill just be VERY late and im serious for every little sorry ive said. but i guess to the world words are cheap.it carry no meanings or whatever. or ill just be late for a min or two. its not that ive got no interest in working or whatever. its not that im not serious with my job. but i guess thats what they think.

and being automatic. sometimes.. i feel.. doing more things and if do wrongly will ganna scolding. and for me, i dont want that to happen so i dont do until im instructed to do. but to them, im a buey zi dong person. some say its common sense stuff. im so sorry den. my common sense not so common.

i wonder when someone discriminate someone how would they feel? why cant someone just accept me for who I am? for what i am? but not asking for more? care not a LITTLE more. im just me. i forgot that im of the world now. sigh cant expect much from worldly ppl.

sometimes i really hope that STUPID word would just stop coming out. you may be just joking. but sometimes i really take it serious. i may be laughing all the time playing enjoying. but do you think im really feeling that way deep inside?

i dont mind getting scolded. i dont mind. i dont mind if you just tell me everything your unhappy with. but i would love to if you just show mercy with words.

im gonna quit soon, so i guess ill just trouble you for thirty plus more days and soon you'll not see me and i wont be there to get in your way or trouble you or even making you pissed.

alright. i think im really sad now. i just hope bro is home to be with me........ just be here.. i really hope................ but hes not... i miss him so much..

RAHH!

im not your what chicken rice girl or what cutie pie and i dont want to know if you miss me or what.

you know well enough that i mean what i said in the SMS. its not what care or love that puts into it. its not what you are single and im single and we can be together. get that to your head alright. i dont like you or miss you or whatever.

i told you to stop all the cutie pie and my pie shit you better STOP. i really mean it alrights. get it into your brain.

im upset with some people! cutie pie cutie pie. RAH. if you dont get what ive said in that short message. maybe i should just scream at you so all that could get into your brain huh. if friendship aint what you wanted. im so sorry. you aint what i wanted in a relationship.

i cant believe someone would just sms to ask questions likdat and the prob is that i had never even gave a single thought about it. and whining all the time. goodness sake.. spare me alrights. told me age aint the prob to you? but i dont see any point that you are acting YOUR age. no matter what, im still older than you. being friendly with you, you cant get it. you can only understand when i get angry huh?

world! im so PC! someone actually tell me that its the love and care that puts into it but before that. said you are single and im single, why not we.......? hell you know whats a relationship? i myself dont know much about it but i guess i know a little more than you do.

met some stupid customer at work. got boyfriend? im your boyfriend right. come la lets have dinner together. you stay where? what school? oh that school? im going to that school you know.can i have your number? come on we're gonna be classmates-when he look so like a guy in his early thirties!-.. some so kpo.. hey that neckless.. your boyfriend give one ah?dont smile too much leh. will like you even more one.how old are you ah?

oh God. why are there people like them in the world? irritated........

alrights. thats the unhappy part..

OH MAN! PUMA SHOP HAS OFFICIALLY STARTED ITS OPERATION!!

i went to the shop after work to search for my limey greeny puma shoe and i found it and it cost freaking 89.00 bucks. hurhur. so eX! i saw one orange puma jacket selling at 40.00 oh.. i love it. and the puma wallet selling at 20.00. so nice....

and at work. ah seng aka seng seng got me chocolates. your so nice! thanks friend~ work aint tough today. din really have hard time except for one particular customer who came and irritate me.

oh. some customer really pisses me off lar. lets say some customers really like to take advantage of us SERVERS. some checked in lets say at 2pm. i served drinks and accidentally spilled one of the FRUIT PUNCH on the floor as the SOME customers moved that stool next to the door and i didnt notice it coz they OFF the lightS! and i exerted too much force when opening the door and the door hit me and i lose my balance and poof water spill! and that customer come and say.. erm likdat can we extend timing? i was like.. sorry you just checked in and im gonna change you to another room. sorry i cant extend timing. please lor. spill drink and just change the room in less than 10 mins you come and tell me you want to extend? in the end she went to find fault with my receptionist saying what student and normal package rubbish and she eventually won coz afterall shes still our CUSTOMER. she came at ard 1+pm and sang till 7pm. wow..

oh one more. its my off day yesterday and i went kbox. was in the ladies and i overheard this two girls conversation. they were complaining about us. saying what service charge? we still have to ask for the bill ourself lor. still come and charge us.

know why we didnt send the bill to you? its because we are letting you sing for a longer time. it also means you can sing longer than the time our receptionist gave. got it? we are letting you enjoy and you come and say such things?basically customer can just check in and enjoy. dont have to worry about billing cause we will auto bill you. if you walk off without billing, we have to pay for you and we surely dont want it to happen.

and some customers just think people working at KTV are those uneducated people? we know you can speak very well in ANG MOH and your very smart. and when we bill you we speak in simple chinese you dont understand? still need your SON to tell you in ENGLISH that 33.30 is actually thirty-three thirty? that lady actually asked her son what did one of my friend say can. my fren just said san shi san kuai san. she dont understand wor!

this are some customer i hope i will never get to serve them.

dear friends, please dont be like them when you are out at any other outlets or ktv singing alrights.

alrights. thats the other unhappy stuff. haha..

WOW! time passes really fast eh? its friday tomorrow and soon one week is gone. wow. and april's coming to me really soon! haha. jo darling i really hope i can see you really soon. rene deary.. enjoy yourself in the chalet! haha! xinxin! jia you at work~~~~~ keep on keeping on!

world, tell me to keep on keeping on!!! schools starting and it also means the next battle is coming~

Fight the Fight of everything? new challenges... im fearful of new challenges...but ill try to overcome it! haha.

i miss my quiet time~

22nd March.

dear world! how was your day today? haha! i had fun today. all i did was karaoking and movie. tot i would be singing alone at kbox today but ended up elson joined. haha. im so sorry for letting you wait elson. forgive me alrights. haha! well. my fault. i assumed you will be late so i nua till im so lazy lar. haha. sorry dude. haha!

sang till like 6+pm and i left kbox to meet nelson for movie. haha. caught Big Momma House 2 at Cineleisure. thanks nelson for the treat! your so niceee!!! xie xie! its a nice show and i love it too.

dined at suki ramen.i so love the chawamushi! thanks to nelson!! i was hesitating if i should order tempura fries or chawamushi. was afraid that i couldnt finish all. and so nelson ordered chawamushi.. and i order fries.. tot nelson wanted to eat that. in the end it was meant for me. thanks nelson! your so niceee!! how can i not eat chawamushi when im at a jap restaurant! my favu is chawamushi!!!! yummiee.

alright.. its working day tomorrow.. im feeling lazy to work now. RAHH. april please come to me really really soon okie. im waiting like crazie. im turning mad. freaking broke too. AHHHHH.

AHHHHHHHHH!!! movies movies and more moviessssssss!!

hahassss. caught Dorm on Monday and caught Yours, Mine and Ours today and im gonna catch Big Momma House 2 tomorrow!! WEeeEEe!

Dorm aint a really bad show lar. i quite like it thou. haha. i love the friendship Chantree and Vicien had. the care and concern they have for each other. wow.

as for Yours, Mine and Ours. oh. i so LOVE this show. damn nice. must watch lar. so nice and so nice la. haha. its more like happily ever after kinda show lar. haha. i love it! i was laughing out loud with xinxin in the cinema. haha.

i was so hungry then, didnt have the chance to grab a bite before the show. its showing at 740pm at EngWah. and i ended work at 7pm. man i rushed like crazie. walked till my legs are gonna die lar. haha. bought popcorns and the moment i sat down, i started eating. and its my first time finishing the popcorns with xinxin. i had never ever finish eating one. haha. even finished the drink lor. haha.

went to give out flyers this afternoon, walked passed the puma shop and man my eyes got stucked with that shoe again. i so wanna get it lar. i love it alot alot. i wonder how much will it cost. haha.

and dear world its my off day tomorrow and im so gonna try karaoking alone. haha. i think it would be so much fun. ive never tried singing alone. i always see customers coming and sing alone in the room. thought its gonna be boring. but the people always stayed on for so long. haha. so i guess it wouldnt much matter to me la. half of the time i might just be out from my room to chit chat with my friends. haha.

ive so many plans for april. haha. shopping over at JB with a friend. wow. and etc. sheat jo.. ive forgotten all about that date with rene to club. haha. it shall all come to pass when april comes! haha. lets get crazie before getting serious for SCHOOL!

omg! IM IN LOVE WITH.....

this lime green puma shoe over at the shop located at MS-PUMA- shop! it hasnt started operating. how sad! i cant enter the shop to look around. RAHH. everyday, ill just walk passed the shop and look at the feet of the model. man i so love the lime green puma shoe!!

i saw bikinis too~ i wanna get one. also at MS. haha. i saw many many accessories too. i wanna get it i wanna get it. went to one of the shop at citylink, i so wanna get the heels there! im dreaming of the ripcurl jacket. so nice. and it cost like a hundred bucks. goodness.. someone just bless me with that jacket can? haha!

schools starting soon. im so excited.. im gonna be a student once again!! thank God!

went to the wallet shop and im eyeing on one long wallet. same brand as the same one im using now. and im also eyeing on this myuk wallet too. haha.

i wanna do medicure, pedicure too. coz of work i cant do these. how sad!

i saw mp3s i love the black one from creative. and ive decided to change phone!!

dear Lord, its a brand new week tmr.. give me a blessed and blissful week!!

just got home from cityhall. tiredd. met tyler and lynn for dinner. den chill over at Raffles starbucks. had raspberry ice. and had oreo cheesecake. gosh..i love the oreo cheesecake. i love it. soooooooo yummy! haha

took pictures and im waiting for tyler to send it to me. haha. took a six shots picture. so funny man. haha. took pictures with lynn also. haha. shopped around also.. im so tempted to go shopping again!!! alright.. soon pays coming outttt.. hahaa

its a saturday night and i feel so like going out and play. haha. not to club la. but to just go somewhere and talk and play and have fun lor. haha.

i miss serene so much lor. ive not seen her for a week. im missing her so much. and that missy jo. hello.. i might not remember how u look like already. wuahaha..

nelson ong owes me a treat to the movie. please remember!

nelson ong also have a date with me for kboxing session. please remember!!!!

xinxin and i have a date to the movie too. dear please remember!

missy jo and i have a date to the beach. please remember!

missy jo and i also have a date to go shopping. please remember darling!!!

my school and i have a date to pay money. damn..

oh and Justin TAN also have a date with me. hello fren, im waiting for you to call me lor! still nag so much at me online! someones having ATTACHMENT leh. free mehs?

before i forget, JUSTIN TAN Also have a date with me for WAKEBOARDING. do you remember??????????

i feel ive got many things to do this coming april. and im so looking forward to it. hor nelson?? theres bbq held by my cliques from ite. and chalet or bbq by my good buddy. date with jo. to the beach and more. gosh. im so looking forward to all!!

i cant wait to be a student. so i dont have to work. haha. but when im a student i dont wish to be one. so i just wish i could relax and do nothing for awhile. haha.

i miss my brother. i miss the times when im home and his home. i miss the times when i got up from bed knowing hes there and i miss the food he prepare. i miss the times when i got up from bed getting irritated by kidcentral show hes watching. i miss it so much.

i miss the times when grandma sleep with me. i miss the time i spent with grandma.

i wanna lead a peaceful yet interesting life filled with so much love!! i love grandma bro jo and rene so much!!! and also my dear xiner. haha!

grandma was sent to NUH last night coz she had a fall near the toilet the night before. and goodness i was so worried. sigh. headed down to the A&E with Janice and Wilson. saw grandma and i finally had some peace within me. i was so scared.. sigh.

saw her eyes and theres blood around the pupil area. goodness sake. i was feeling the hurt for grandma. sigh. i just hope everything turns out good.

i had a hard time at work yesterday. damn i was freaking pissed. cannot take it. i think some guys at work are lesbian identified man. damn.. in just an hour i went to the toilet twice not to pee but to sit at the bowl and cool down. damn i was really pissed. RAH...............

work went alright today. so much fun and laughter i had today. shake it mama. haha! gosh. so darn funny.

i wonder if i really did let go of some things.. if i did, why do i still think of it?

im home!

stayed over at aunts place last night and came home this morning to get changed and went for my kboxing session with nelson!! wohhoooooooooo! i had loadsa fun.. singing. haha. later grandma aunt and cao yan came over to kbox too. sang and celebrated caoyan's birthday. shes turning 16 today. haha. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

i felt super duper blessed. im happy. im super duper happy. im glad that im able to be spending my time with grandma during this off day of mine. i asked her to sing deng li jun's song. and man shes soooooo cute. i love her! im so glad for everything im given. haha. thank God!

alright. after singing grandma and aunt went back and nelson and i had too much time left before movie. so i decided to go shopping. and man, nelson is sucha good guy lar. haha. he accompanied me all the while. i shopped and he gave his good "comments" haha.

i got myself sunglasses over at far east. and two tops over at cineleisure. oh God im so happy! i saw one more watch and im so gonna get it really soon. and i saw heels over at far east. oh.. i so wanna get it too. RAHH. and not forgetting the bag at far east! i really wanna get it! and earringss.. oh my...i love them so much.

caught datemovie. haha. damn lame lar. haha. was laughing out loud. and now i wanna watch big momma 2 and launch something. and duno wad mine yours and ours? haha. i so wanna watch many many showsssss..

thanks nelson for ya treat to haagen daz. i almost died. haha. man that chocolate is freaking thick and its soooooooooo heaty and SINFUL! haha but i love it! hahah. thanks buddy!!

jo dearest! ur so welcomed! haha. whatever happens, theres me!! if i can, i believe u can also do it. trust me. itll take time thou. mine was one week. haha! keep on keeping on darling! im here!!!! love ya many many! muahhhh!

so blessed! i cant contain it!

be loved and blessed dear worldly world.

its my off day tmr worldly world~

and im so gonna go out and play! yes nelson ong? haha.

i wanted to cry again yesterday. haha. not because of that -ahem- stuff. coz of my beloved grandma. gosh...... went over to aunts place after having dinner with baobao and her friend. my plan was to visit grandma and go home and rest coz i had a tired day lars. then i got to aunts place, grandma was on bed but wasnt sleeping. so i went and lie beside her and call her. she, straight away hugged me and ask me to go and sleep.

theres two beds. ones for me and ones for grandma. but she hugged and moved till we're both sleeping on one bed. haha. her arms around me and she asked me to put my leg on her. haha.i was feeling so... i dont know how to say. its like someone suddenly needed me to be there so much. she hugged me to sleep. oh God.. thanks for giving my grandma who loves me so much.

her room has got no fan all. and she closed her window. i was like oh man. im freaking warm. and grandma thinks that im cold. so she keep tucking me with her only blanket. dear world, feel the love?thats love for me. aha!

when xiao aunt saw grandma being so good to me. she got unhappy. and im serious she got UNHAPPY. she said grandma has her grand daughter and doesnt want her own daughter and den that woman keep scolding my grandma. i raised my voice at her..saying: BU YAO MA WO DE NAI NAI! den i hugged my grandma. that woman is such an RAHH. dont know what can i say. its like the moment xiao aunt stepped into the room, she scolded grandma. how rude is she man. i feel like walking over and just slap her. haha. damn rude. i hate her voice lar. sickening.

i told grandma that ive got to go home and she got agitated. and said to just let her be happy by staying and she keep holding on to me. i was wondering what happened that causes her to behave this way. she told me xiao aunt aint treating her good and all. i was so sad. i dont know what can i do. and says that she wanna stay with me. i would love to but i cant im working and i cant take care of her 24/7 and she has difficulty in controlling her urine. so its hard for me to be working out for like half a day. and who's there to look after her while im working?

and its like ive got to be by her side. exp, i needa go to the toilet. she'll just get up from her bed and stay still and look at the toilet. waited till im out and she lie down. and keep asking me to 'kong' which means sleep. she finally slept peacefully at 12++am. we're both on bed since 10++pm. i guess she was afraid that ill leave so she stayed awake. i had a little movement she'll just open her eyes can. aiyo.

walked grandma to the office and i told her i gtg. i asked her to stayed in the office. but she just wanted to see me out. so she stand outside the office and see me going down escalator from level to level. den till she couldnt see me. i was turning back to see if shes still there. and yes shes still there. and quickly rushed to get cab. super late for work already. haha.

oh. anyway. thanks Kangpeishan. im alright already. keeping on still. im happy now. dont worry. i feel so blessed and great. thanks!

i miss joanna and serene!!!!!muahhhh.

oh and im going over to stay with grandma tonight! bye world!!

hi my worldly world~

i wanted to blog yesterday but ive got no time. so yah i shall blog now. hee. grandma's back home. recovering already. im just praying real hard that she will not fall down again. it just hurt me when i see the balaku. goodness.

went to the hospital yesterday with xinxin but grandma wasnt there. she went for dont know what scan. waited for more than an hour for her. so in between that time, xinxin and myself take pictures to entertain ourselves. i guess the nurse thinks we are mad. haha but i care not! haha!

stayed for like 4+hours in the hospital den headed down town to get my spectacle and i so love it. haha!

went to catch underworld evolution with baobao chermaine and henry. not a bad show. haha.

okie.. im gonna upload loadsa pictures i took with xinxin. bear with me dear world! hahah!


at my place. we're ready to go to the hospital.


one more shot.


okie we're at the MRT station.






in the free shuttle bus to NUH


xinxin! we're waiting for grandma to come back from the duno wad scan.. that took a long long time.


me!!


again




so cute right!




im boREDDDD


OH shes FINALLY BACK!


towned and i got my spectacle.. how do i look?




xin and i with our spectacle!


closer... wad you guys think? i love it can!








xin had one with her drinking tea. so i also want a shot of myself drinking. haha








i love the flowerrrrrrrsss






i dreeamm big dreams~


do i really love her?


well i think i do!


okie i dont know why i did that.


i din managed to get the dao look.


ERm...


i love mirrors


its us!


our beautiful bag!!




i really love her!!!!












if im thinner.. haha. man. i cant do it like her!!


we're still taking when we're at the escalator.


one more pic of myselfff...










i was just asking why God created us to be sooooo cute! hahahaa.




im a vain girl!!! hahahahaha..


tadah~~~~~

thats all. enjoy dear world!